Health and Uni...

So i managed that full week at Uni last week that i was hoping i would be able to do. It was tough, but i stuck it out :)

My cold that i had is all gone now, apart from the stuff that went down onto my chest thats making my life hell at the moment. I was really struggling for breath yesterday and was out of breath just sat reading my book on the sofa! I had to get up off the sofa in small stages just to go and get a drink. Today my chest isnt much different, im rattling like a car engine, and no amount of nebs and such seems to be shifting it all like normal :( Im hoping this is just a rough few days ahead of me, and not something thats long term as ive got hospital on the 29th of this month and really dont want to go on IVs :(

Im a bit more settled at Uni now. Apart from having a good full week in uni, ive not been in an amazing mood really. I was really down during last week for reasons i dont want to put on here for now. But i had a cuddle with my mum and a good cry ('coz sometimes thats all you need to do!) and i chatted with a friend, and felt a bit better about things.

Im looking into driving schools now, as i think im finally ready to learn to drive. I think if i get behind the wheel and just do it and have a go, ill get a better feel for how i feel about driving. Either way i think my confidence is better now for learning than it was a few years ago. Besides, then if i can learn to drive and be along side all the other maniacks out there, then surely i can do a class presentation right?! haha

Im really looking forward to the 27th of this month as ive got my Web Developers conference to go to :D This will be the third one ive been to in a row. I love them! Its exciting for me to be able to meet and greet other web designers/developers who are out there and making it either on their own or as a company. Ive found out a few good things at these conferences, and they really inspire me. I just hope this year i have the oumph to go up to these people and speak to them!!

Until then ive plenty of Uni work to be getting on with. We get our clients soon for my Consultancy Project, and im working on sorting out an idea for my Digital Media Project, also i had the best week last week and actually fully followed and understood a lecture and a tutorial on advanced PHP!! This didnt happen once last year as i was so rubbish at PHP code, but i put in hours of study over the summer for this code and now im so much better at it, and can actually understand what on earth the lecturer is talking about haha! It was the highlight of my week really :p

long week...

It feels like its been quite a long week for me. Maybe due to the amount of travelling I've been doing to and from Uni. I think it will take me a while to get used to it all but i already guessed that much. I'm pretty glad I'm living at home for this year, as i know i would be feeling more ill than i already feel by now. Ive got a cold at the moment, I'm pretty sure that's whats been making me feel so dog rough the past few days as its been brewing, and it decided to finally make an appearance last night. My knees were giving me immense pain, to the point where i could barely kneel on them if i had to without being in excrutiating pain. I took an anadin pill that are for joints and they work really well, my knees are much better today, still sore but at least i can go up and down stairs now properly! I always use my joint pain now as a marker for infection or a cold. My knees are usually the first to cripple me, after that its my ankles, hips then my wrists and fingers and every other joint that's left after that. Ive had bone scans but it shows up clear each time, so they've just put it down to another aspect of CF for me to be dealing with. Thankfully i realised the other day that all my classes on my timetable are all on the ground floor, so no steep stairs to climb or lifts to go hunting for on particularly bad days :) I said to a friend of mine how happy that made me and she just looked at me like i was crazy. Clearly she didn't get what it meant for me! Even though she knows all about my CF and joint pain and everything. But that doesn't bother me.

Uni has been odd this week. My first lecture the teach didn't even turn up for :| Then a note was posted on the course message board saying it was cancelled AFTER the fact! What use is that to us! So i was a bit pissed as id gotten up at 6am and walked to the train station which is pretty long way for me and quite hilly as well and caught a train and 2 buses to uni to sit for 2 hours doing nothing! Then have to wait until 1pm until my next class. So i basically spent the morning and some of the afternoon sat around doing nothing. What a great start to my first day back! My afternoon class didn't fill me with much happiness either as from the title i thought it would be advanced code and things and instead its all theory work and basically essay writing so far! BLAH!! That was the only day i went into Uni this week as Tuesdays and Fridays i have off and Weds and Thurs i wasn't well, which i now know was this cold brewing up for me...

Hopefully next week will be much better for me, and i intend to spend the full week there! This year is worth 75% for me, and theres already a lot of work to be getting on with. Which I'm sort of happy about, but not at the same time, as nobody likes lots of work to do lol! I got a bit low on Wednesday as after my Friday induction i was feeling really confident and so excited about this final year at Uni, but after the horrid Monday, and then falling ill and missing classes on the first week back i felt well a bit shit if I'm honest! Its a bit weird being back with most of my class out on placement. I would love to be on a placement but i don't think i would have held out health wise. I really think I'm doing the best thing for myself living at home and doing my last year now. I'm mostly on my own as the group i hung out with last year and year 1 are on placement. I was hanging with two others from my course but they don't seem to want me around for some reason. I cant keep up with their walking and they don't slow down for me or anything, so i just let them go on. I leave a few mins before them for class anyway and they aren't ready to leave so, I'm pretty much left to my own devices this year by the seems of things. Which does and doesn't bother me, but I'm sure ill get used to it. I can take my sketch book in and sit in the cafe and draw, and once coding assignments get going i can either take my laptop in and work in the cafe or i can go to the computer labs and work in there :)
I was going to rant and rave about them and how I'm feeling quite left out by them, but i did that with my best friend last night so I'm all better :p

I'm hoping i can manage to sort something out to see my best friend over Xmas, I've not spoken to her about it yet though. Shes on placement in France (surrounded by mountains and fresh clean air, I'm so jealous hahaha!) so were emailing each other and we chat on msn when we can. We've got addresses and such all sorted and I've got something to post her, which i know will make her smile :) Her Xmas hols are pretty much the same as mine from Uni, so maybe we can sort something out, well see...

Saturday will be fun, i don't care if its raining and i feel rotten or not, I'm going shopping with my mum :D Were going to Bristol as that has a better Primark than SwindonItalia at the moment, but well see what other places there are that we've not been to yet :p