plain pissed off

I had a cold and its just suddenly come on one morning i woke feeling like id been run over and reversed on by a steam roller. I was so tired and fed up. When i was little and living with my mum, dad and sister if they all got a cold i would always some how manage to avoid it and be totally fine. I was always boasting about that i never got colds when i was younger. It lasted through most of seniors aswell up until about year 10/11. I think it changed coz of A. i was getting older and CF hates when you get older apparently and B. i was always wearing myself out studying for my GCSE's. After that it seemed okay and i went back to my normal cold skipping self.
Now a few years on i seem to constantly get colds no matter how warm i keep myself when out in winter and ive pretty much constantly got the heating on at home and then at uni, not that the uni house keeps the warmth very well. Im sometimes glad for a slight temperature living here just so i can get some warmth in me! Which is of course bad.

Like i said ive got/had a cold now and its left my sinus' and my head doesnt feel like its at sea anymore. But everything has migrated down onto my chest. Before when this has happened its lasted a few days maybe a week and then its not so bad.

This time i swear its out to land me in hospital! Im wheezing for the first time in absolute years and its seriously pissing me off!! I feel so out of breath just walking up the stairs to my room or to the bus stop. When i go outside my lungs ache soooo much coz im breathing in sudden cold air, and it just hurts. If im not with anyone i put my head phones on and go to another world. I like my other world im healthy and things are so much better than life in reality. I know my life isnt like total shit, but it seriously has its moments, and when it rains, it pours for me :| Any problems just all seem to come at once.
A good example would be the next few weeks. Ive got clinic today to sort me out before my port op as they need my chest to be as clear as possible - fat chance that happening when theres an elephant sat on it! - and then ive got my annual review on the 8th feb, then im admitted on the 11th Feb and have my op done on the morning of the 12th feb. Past that im unsure of whats happening, but i am so certain im going to be on IVs after my ports in. On top of all the hospital time and physio time at home i still need to attend lectures, and get all my assignment done. I have 6 modules and ive now got an assignment for each one, all due before Easter! God knows how im going to manage. I can speak to the disability people but they have changed all the rules and apparently last time i went onto IVs i wasnt entitled to exten circs and so my assignment was pretty shit when i handed it in. So im not going to be shocked if they say that im not entitled to them again. Which is bull shit as they changed it and still let the people with on going conditions be entitled to them. Depending what happens today i might speak to them. Even though it always seems such effort for them to pull their fingers out theirs arses.

Better go get ready for clinic, ill blog about that later.