Get up and go

A while ago, my "get up and go" got up and went completely. I was pretty ill for my standards for i would say a good few months and its left me with a lot of issues i didn't have to deal with before, like 38% lung function and 45kg in weight.

But the past few weeks i think its been coming back. Albeit slowly yes, but its getting there. I think the sunshine has helped, i hate Winter, it does nothing for me at all except hospitalise me or house bound me further as the cold now makes my lungs bleed a great deal and that freaks me out no matter how many times its happened! But i think that feeling is the same for most people when they cough up blood...

Ive started doing my dnase again in the mornings, I'm able to wake up and actually get up earlier which means i don't get a headache all day from being in a hot room and sleeping all morning. It also means i can have breakfast which means more calories to take in each day :)
In the evenings now as its usually quite nice me and mum go out for a walk, its not long walks across the fields, usually just around the block as that's all i can handle right now. But i want to build it up, i desperately want some strength back in my lungs! The walk does help me, i can clear a lot sometimes, other times not so much but that's okay.

I am still going to get a wheelchair, I'm waiting for the team member who deals with that sort of thing to get back to me about it, as i still cant handle long day trips out, and that's bothering me a lot more than not being able to walk to town right now, as its not fair on mum, especially when she breaks up for summer holidays (she works in a school so she gets all the holidays they do which is really nice). So well mainly be using the wheelchair for when were wanting to go further afield for shopping or a day out or something. I might use it if I'm having a particularly bad day and we still want to go to town, but otherwise i would still like to walk about town. I don't want to become reliant on it as then ill get no where with getting myself fitter.

I'm going back to the gym, i just need to book some appointments in with my trainer and i want to start doing walking on the treadmill on a slight incline, some time on the bike and i want to start doing some light weights again so i can start defining some muscle and not have stick legs come summer time :p Plus if i can develop some muscle it might add some weight on me as well, as muscle is heavier than fat! That will shut my dietician up, its my mission in life right now to prove to her i can do this weight gain on my own, i just need her to stop mentioning all the time when she sees me how thin i am, and how i need the PEG. I think if she mentions it at the next appointment i will explode at her. I still don't think that the dieticians understand one bit how hard it is for a CFer to gain weight, no matter if they eat 14 KFCs each week or something extreme like that. Just because they might specialise in CF doesn't mean they understand it for how it is for the actual patient, no matter how much the patient tries to explain it... Rant over :p

I went to town today, and for the first time in a while i didn't feel sick and need to sit down every 5mins! I was able to stand and walk around the shops, still at a snails pace which i think annoyed people who got stuck behind me but never mind!
I'm beginning to think that i have an addiction to buying PJ's. I got some Animal PJ's from Peacocks today, its a t-shirt type top with Animal on it, and the trousers to match which have images of him on there and the word Animal down one of the legs :) I also hate my neck and top of my chest getting cold and as i wear a lot of vest type tops i find myself wearing my scarf still if I'm outside and its breezy, so mum took me to the outdoor market today and i got some of them better, fashionable scarfs that everyone wears. I got two for £10, which is better as i was going to get one in New Look that would have cost me £8 so i saved some money there :) Now i cant stop wearing them! One is a black one with a pattern stitched in white and its got some feint reddy brown stitching going through it as well, and the other is white with lots of "blobs" of color all over it. Ill try and put some pics up later if i remember!

Anyway I've rambled enough now, i better get on with some revision!